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My hubby bought me a scales today..a digital one where there is no doubt..NICE!  I quickly put the batteries in and surprise, surprise I have lost 4 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!  I KNEW that the damn public scales that I had been standing on hated me…staying the same for the last three weeks, I knew that I had lost some but the damn thing wasn’t showing it. 

Now I’ve gotten that extra boost that I needed to make sure I do everything right and more determination this coming week to take more off!!

Thank you, Thank you,  so much to my buddy’s who’ve encouraged me!  It means more than you know!! 

I haven’t written in a while ever since I went wacko after being able to button up my purple jeans. I am determined to buy a measuring tape and a scales(an item that single handedly runs out life) so I can stand on it when I feel like I’m a thinner me.

I’ve been so down after seeing the public scales(that I swear hates me with a passion) has stayed the same for the last three weeks!! aaauuugghh!!!  I’ve been in a slump and stayed away because I didn’t wanna rain on anybody’s parade.  This whole week I haven’t exercised much at all, my knees have been in too much pain(one of my excuses) and I’ve been focusing too much on other friends/family in my life going through problems of their own.  Concentrating too much on encouraging them and “being there” for them I have left myself out in the cold.  If I would just care enough for myself as much as I do for everyone else in my life I would be looking like Barbie!  I need to somehow find a way to fall in love with myself and concentrate on getting healthy. 

Just to be safe, I tried on the purple jeans again….yay!! they still fit and I actually wore them around for awhile!!  I took a pic of myself and posted it…I look horrible, but at least I now have proof that I can actually fit into them. Like my good buddy Jana told me, maybe here soon they’ll be falling off!!! 

Today is a new day and hopefully soon I’ll grab myself by the nap of the neck and get busy taking care of MYSELF!!!

In  previous blog I had written on how I couldn’t button a purple pair of jeans that I have(my hubby hates them).  Well I went into my closet a little while ago to do the dreaded/anticipating “test” to see if I can button my annoying pair of jeans.  I not only can button them now I can zip those baby’s up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   I’m so pumped, so syked, I’m beside myself!!!!!!   I can’t express enough just how excited I am…can’t  you tell?  So, self to hubby….look out, you’re about to see me wear those horrible jeans again!!!   Can’t wait!!   I might see them cut up into little shreds after I take them off, but at least I know and he knows that I CAN wear them once again!!  

It’s coming off baby……it’s COMING OFF!!!!!!! 

Reading my following horoscope today… it’s even telling me to get going and work out!! My buddy Jana was been fantastic and keeping me encouraged and inspiring me to get movin’ and not let what I’m going through right now to keep me down.  Tomorrow morning this will all come to a head and I’ll know where we go from here.  This has been torturing and a real distraction. My son is very scared, although he hides it very well. 

My Horoscope:  

 If you are feeling a bit down in the dumps, the best way to get yourself out of that mood is movement! Physical activity will help get the good endorphins rushing through your bloodstream, and they will bring positive energy, guaranteed. You don’t have to run a marathon to feel the results, either. Just taking a long, leisurely walk around your neighborhood might do the trick. Dancing is another great idea — if you can’t hit the town, just turn up the radio and move your body!

I fixed some steamed veggies yesterday(my first time)…I think I steamed them too long…I mean I could’ve eaten them with no teeth!! I’ve got to find some help in the steaming veggies department…mine were pretty yucky!! I’ve cooked(a very good job I might add) for many, many years…but “healthy” things not too familiar with and the taste proves it. 

Today is supposed to be a stormy one with severe thunderstorms and hail…all activites will be done inside!! 

Still don’t have my scales….The MOST important thing for to buy at the store and I FORGOT it!!!!  I know I’m losing weight but have no idea how much.  My boobs are getting smaller much to the dismay of my hubby, I can also feel it in my stomach, butt and veeeery little in my legs….weird.  Maybe my muscles are coming out of hiding?  I dreamed last night I was NICE AND THIN!!!!  Yay!!  Then my hubby woke me up..nooooooooo!!  I felt so much healthier and loved the image I saw in the mirror….just what I needed to give me that extra boost to keep going. 

I thank all of you, especially Jana who has encouraged me during this rough time!  One more day and hopefully the nightmare will end, or if it goes the other way, it will be just beginning. 

You all have a good day!!  :-) 

Take Care 

I love to cook and get excited when I find a good cookbook or website that offers some good ones.  I found this really good website that has a HUGE variety of several different recipe’s of all kinds of dishes and different ways to fix each one. It’s one with simple recipe’s with simple ingredients and not any of those complicated ones with items that normal people have never heard of.  :-) 

I’ve seen several from Weight Watchers and have seen that several of you buddy’s are doing the WW plan, so thought I would share what I found to all of you out there!

The website is www.cooks.com .  Good Luck and enjoy!!

 Not too much has changed on my end….just waiting for the dreadful events that are going on with my son to end and at least come to some kind of resolution…good or bad………….hoping for the good. 

You all have a good day!

The last few days have been dramatic ones for me…a lot of personal trama going on in regards to my youngest son. He’s innocent in his actions/motives(set up by a fellow classmate) but we’re hoping the school officials and the police agree….yikes! There’s an investigation going on and it won’t be concluded until the 10th, and at the same time I may be hearing the police knock on my door anytime.  Friday my brain felt like mush and my insides as if it had gone through a blender!! Losing weight has been the last thing on my mind. 

Since I don’t have a scale(I’m getting one tomorrow) I had to weigh in at a public place after I had drunk three huge cups of coffee, a glass of water and then ironically had to pee AFTER I weighed in…aaaauugghh!!  Needless to say the scale didn’t move…showed the same as I weighed in as last week. I can feel a difference, but the scales wasn’t agreeing with me. Making me more than ever determined to buy a scales.  My problem with having a scales is I tend to weigh myself every morning, which is not a good thing I know.  But, I want to SEE how I’m doing.

Life has a way of sending you some interesting curves and I’m hoping things will work out.  It just makes it hard to concentrate on working out, and eating right. 

Other than all of this and trying to concentrate on my beloved NASCAR races this weekend, that’s about it.  Please remember me in your prayers….life is not fair at times and I’m hoping this isn’t one of them. 

One good note…I FINALLY was able to take a pic of my hubby…he HATES his picture taken and he took pity on me because I wasn’t able to put one of him on my profile.  :-) 

Hope you all are having a good weekend!!  Cheers!

Well, I decided to take up my buddy’s Flo’s advice and worked out to some slower music! Started out with Boston, did some slower moves, did some of those boring exercises like what we used to do as children during our PE classes….you know the sit ups, leg raises etc.  Oh! I worked up a sweat alright, but wasn’t hurting as bad afterwards.  Yay!

I then hopped in the shower and did some dancing to Laura Branigan!  When the song Satisfaction came on I went nuts! I mean this song makes you feel real sexy and wanna start stripping your clothes off! Thankfully I was already in that stage and just felt sexy…dancing in my shower!! The water got kind’a warm and I was so much INTO what I was doing that I accidently turned the cold water knob the WRONG way…NOW I’M ON FIRE!!!  Yikes!! Needless to say it brought me back to reality…bummer!  But it didn’t take me long to get back into “My Moment”! 

It felt so good to back into the work out mode and feel alive again!!

See how important it is for us buddies to comment on each others blogs(this goes for me too), it does so much to help us all along on this journey (what feels like forever sometimes) and get to our magical number which we call our goal!! 

Thanks to all you buddies who came to my rescue and helped me when I needed it the most!!  YOU ARE THE GREATEST!!! 

I write this humbly and feeling very stupid…I’ve been wallowing in self pity long enough!!  I don’t know how I would’ve made it through these last few days if it weren’t for my good buddies! My husband has always been very supportive of me getting all this fat off, but at the same time is not happy that it’s coming off as slow as it is.  He claims that he’s afraid for my health.  After finding me passed out on the bedroom floor one day when he came home from work has accelerated his concerns and is afraid that me losing weight at a slow pace will not be fast enough to get me back where I’m healthy.  So, in response to his drive I’ve been pushing myself and doing too much exercise too fast, thus resulting with injuries….backfiring and slowing me down even more.

I’ve said all that to say this…..after hearing from my buddies and closest friend Alyssa(fellow buddy), I’ve realized that I have to do this MY way and go with my instinct and what my body is telling me.  I want/need to lose and I need to do it smart.  My buddy Florence showed me that when one part of my body is hurt, I can simply work on other areas that aren’t.  She gave me the kick-in-the-butt that I needed….Thank you!! Other buddies were sympathetic and understanding which completed what I needed to hear! 

Hubby tells me that he “knows” that it takes time and seems to be happy with even a couple of pounds off a week…But, the actions are speaking louder than the words coming out of his mouth……..   Speaking of hubby…he was asking me last night to show him the pics I have on my profile…after not seeing a pic of him, he was asking me WHY I didn’t have one of him on there.  Well duh, I told him when he hides his face everytime I take a pic of him how does he think I could actually put one of him like that on there???   So, maybe, just maybe I’ll be able to take one of him soon and post it.

On another note, my son Matt(Junior in High School) came home from school and told me that we will be spending some quality Mother/Son time together for the next couple of days….I then asked him if he got suspended from school, which he followed with “Yes”!!  One of his fellow classmates emailed him all the teachers names along with their computer passwords to him on his school issued laptop…STUPID!! Having problems with his computer he took it to the “tech center” to get it repaired. Even after deleting it off his computer, info was still on hardrive…BUSTED!!!  He’s now suspended for two days followed with 20 days attending a disciplinary school…oh brother!!   Teenagers!!!!  He’s never gotten in trouble before, so I guess I can’t complain too much, there are a lot worse out there.  After all he does brag about his Mom to all his classmates….how many teenagers do that? 

Well, I’ve rambled on too much already….I do need to get going on my cardio.  My ankle is feeling better today and I’m looking forward to getting some exercise in.  I’ve drunk so much water, I’m beginning to feel like a fish!  Ha! It “feels” like I’ve lost some weight, but don’t know for sure……I have no scales….bummer!! 

You all have a good day!!

When will it all end?! Finally got over the pain/injury with my neck I went at it again…working out to the music. Have you ever worked out/danced in front of the mirror?….it’s so funny!  I laughed so hard, lost my balance and now my ankle/foot is in big trouble. Don’t know if I sprained it, bruised the bone, cracked it or what..but, it hurts like hell!!!  I can’t hardly walk on it which has brought even my daily walk to a screeching halt!!!  I’m so pissed right now!!! This weight is already coming off too slow for me and I want it all gone already and now THIS!!! 

I haven’t blogged or even signed on in a little while, I’m beyond frustrated!! This kind’a blog does not really put a smile on anyone’s face…..   I work so damn hard, with little results and now I’m hoping to not GAIN weight now.  I smell food and gain weight and have to work so Damn hard to get a measly pound off.  The same reason I’m trying to get all this off is preventing me from doing it…it hurts soooo bad!! 

Sorry this blog is not an inspirational one….I’m frustrated beyond frustrated…I’m sick of all the pain in my bones all over my body and wonder if it’ll ever be good. 

I congratulate every one out there that is doing well…I’m happy for you and wish you luck!! 

I did a work out this morning to my wonderful music, and a second one this afternoon…big mistake. In ‘92 I was in a bad wreck(a lady ran a stop sign and hit me right on the driver’s door) my head hit the ceiling real hard and it gave me three herinated disks in my neck and some in my back. The paramedics told me that the only thing that saved my life was all this padding I have around my neck! Making a long story short, I’ve had nothing but problems with my neck and back ever since and have to treat them very carefully, thus limiting my physical activites. I’ve been treated with numerous treatments and my only option is surgery and the chance of it actually fixing the problem is small.  Even having my neck adjusted by a Chiropractor can break my neck I was told….yikes!!

So, dummy me doing too many workouts or trying too hard has now hurt my neck and I’ve been out of commission today after that. I have numerous prescription pain killers, but don’t want to go there unless I really have to.  I really haven’t been in the mood to do much of any blogging, checking blogs etc…….sorry. :-(  I try to be positive and to think positive…..today I’m not able to and wanted to explain why.  

Hopefully tomorrow some of the swelling and pain will be gone and I’ll be back to myself.  :-) 

I’m paying for the workout, buy hey! listening to the cool music was aaaaaalll good!!! 

You all take care!